Winnings/losses so far on SNGs-MTTs on PokerStars on some stakes and games

Mistakes

  I know, I run so bad. I have spent so much money on poker but still I have no strategy on how to get into a longer winning period. But, I don't blame it on anyone except me. I realize it is tough to focus after 9-10 hours a day at work without days off, so it makes it easier to lose focus and to tilt and to start to mix the stakes and games in those circumstances... Many times I would make money in SNGs then splash it all on MTTs or ZOOM. I have had enough of depositing over and over again and it is about time to wake up. Luckily I earn good money at my job so my poker losses didn't affect my life too much, but I would love to save some money aside and to master the discipline in poker and to finally quit this hard job I am doing and get some free time for my girlfriend, family and friends and poker of course.

  So many times I would go to work from 4pm until 1am, so a 9 hour shift, and even though I know it is not clever to play so tired I would start a session and of course mostly lose... I was thinking, to completely focus on playing 50fifty SNGs, with occasional shots on MTTs, so no cash or ZOOM until I see how my ROI is gonna be then. I will stop playing : tired,when I have personal obligations to fulfill, higher stakes for my bankroll, so many factors that are costing me time and money...
   I never really thought of quitting, because winners never quit and I know I will succeed in what I love doing.It bothers me that in life true dedication and honesty isn't rewarded and capability, here in Montenegro is only who you know and your connections. For poker it is convenient to be settled here to do it, because the living expenses are not as in western Europe and it is now prohibited by law and it is a small touristic country which is so beautiful with a terrific coast and the sea, also with spectacular mountains.
  I don't expect anyone to read this, but in case I make it, it will be an awesome reminder for me and a great public documentation for an achievement I am hoping to make.I will post few graphs and screenshots of my losses so far.
   Greetings to all, feel free to comment on anything, I will keep you posted.

My cash games losses on Pokerstars so far by stakes

Where to start ?

     So, I did a lot of thinking and I am aware of the reason why I am doing so bad. Poor bankroll management, playing various games and stakes, from 50NL zoom to SNGs to MTTs... I am definitely going to stop playing zoom poker, and I will focus on 3.5$ 50fifty SNGs and 3.5$ 18 man and 45 man SNGs and occasional shots at up to 11$ MTTs... Then when I build a solid bankroll try to move up to 7$ SNGs.
     I do watch often coaching videos and read strategy articles everywhere available but I haven't signed up for any coaching sites, mostly because it's expensive and due to my working hours there's not much time but I am considering it. I did get a holdem manager via promotion on pocketfives and it helps me analyze my game. I think to start with 3-4 tables at the time would be ok.I will start with a 50 $ bankroll but I can always deposit if I don't ove up with it.... Anyway, to sum up - no ZOOM, sometimes low stakes MTTs and multitabling 50fiftys and sometimes 18man and 45man SNGs...

   Your thoughts ?


    I'm always open for an advice.


   

Introduction

    First of all, let me introduce myself and what is this my new blog all about.

    I am Kenad, from a small town called Bijelo Polje in a small country called Montenegro.
At the moment I am working as a waiter on the coast in a nice touristic town for a full-time job, and for years I have been engaged in poker.
   
     My dream is to become a successful poker player, and eventually to quit this hard job that I'm doing, and dedicate more time to poker and myself and the things I love doing since I don't have much time because it's a very demanding job... I will be posting here the start of my journey and my progress and I hope that with your help and comments on my mistakes and suggestions I will finally improve as a player and that I will get better results with time. To start with I will post my cash and tournaments graphs from holdem manager and sharkscope so you can see how bad I am actually doing in poker, mainly for my poor bankroll management.
   
     I hope that these blog series will be interesting for you and that your feedback will help, and who knows, maybe one day this big downswing will be a thing of the past. I am looking forward for your suggestions on which games to play, which stakes and we will be analyzing hands and the overall strategy together.
 
    I play mostly on Pokerstars and my username is Kenad_MNE for those who like to track my progress.
 
    Greetings from Montenegro :)

My sharkscope tournament graph:over 8k downswing :(

As you can see, things are really bad...                                                                                        

My holdemmanager cash game graph (for last 2 years)